Sunday, 3 March 2013

Straight boy trouble

My thoughts are all over the place.

It was the company's annual ball at the hotel and a lot of us had booked rooms to stay over. I ended up sharing a room with another guy who I get along with really well in the office. It wasn't my idea initially though. This guy is the same age as me, cute, tall and lean, which fits his posh style. We banter a lot at work on the office messenger. I tease him about the things he does at every opportunity and he takes it well. But he is not gay - occasionally he makes comments about women and you can tell it's not an act. He wasn't embarrassed about mentioning to other people that we were sharing a room either. To him, we were simply capitalising on the benefits from the company. He even joked that I was his date and said things that would have been blatantly flirting if anyone knew I was gay.

By three o'clock in the morning, we were all pretty drunk and headed off from the bar. I was ready to collapse on our double bed (he didn't mind that we had to share a double bed either) so when we got to the room I stripped down to my boxers straight away and climbed into bed. And he did the same after using the toilet.

For the entire night, I had to resist the urge to move closer and touch him. I woke up a number of times during the night because of the alcohol, temperature in the room etc and every time I sneaked a few peeks at him and had to stop myself from thinking about spooning him. It was hard.

Although I was ready to tell the truth if he asked, he had no idea that he was almost naked in bed with a gay guy and it was unfair on him. But after this, it might now be an even worse time to tell him. I don't want to spoil our relationship. I don't know what I should do.

Shit. Now he's on my mind all the time.


sukemnsee said...

What a predicament. Is he just delightfully ignorant like many straight guys or was he throwing out subtle hints with comments and lack of protest and in fact he was wrestling with the should I should not in times he was awake. If you are comfortable with yourself, maybe mention to him some time that you appreciated him behaving the night you shared and not just trying to jump the easy gay guy. He will either walk away with inflated ego about self control, even if accidental, or he might open up and engage. What is there to lose?

incidentally PR8 recommended your blog and I can see why he rates it.

Ethan said...

you see, he is one of the very few people i work with and am good friends with at the same time. I don't want to risk him walking away. plus we have a group trip coming up soon so it could be awkward.

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